Alright so I know I haven't updated in over my month, but honestly I just haven't felt like it. Sorry to those of you that read this.

I had something funny happen to me tonight... let's just say that an ingrown hair turned into a std scare before I remembered - you have to have sex before you get a sexually transmitted disease. I'm a dumbass...

While were on the subject of sex...I'm not getting any. It sucks.

I'm torn at work. Do I take that familiar path where I know the way or do I venture off the path and take a new route? The easy way seems like a dead in but the hard way doesn't go anywhere too promising either. Hmmm...

I'm seriously thinking about going back to school. like I'm pre-registered for fall classes serious. Somethings holding me back though and I'm not sure what to do about it.

Now I'm pretty much someone who lives in the present but some recent events had me thinking about where I'm going to end up in life. I believe in letting whatever happens happen, but sometimes I have doubts about some of my...actions.

Jonesy

You can tell when the TV season is ending when every show you watch is awesome. Since I have no life this week, I'll give my thoughts on my favorites.

Veronica Mars - So we found out last week that Veronica used her college tuition to send her runaway mother to rehab, and dying Abel - the "supposed" killer of Lily has a daughter which gives him motive to accept money from the Kanes. And this week everything is pointing to Duncan as being the Killer. I doubt it. If anything I would say that Duncan is the one who raped Veronica. I'm still going with Mrs. Kane as Lily's killer, guessing that Lily found out about her dad's roving ways and how he has probably fathered half the kids at Neptune High. That right there is enough to piss Mrs. Kane off, being worried about the whole town finding out about her marital problems. As long as it's not Logan or Weevil (HoYay!) I'm good. Five episodes left and then we'll know for sure.

Lost - So now we now it's Boone that's dead, Sayid is planning on killing Locke, and Claire finally had her baby. While I think that Boone is the only main character that kinda sucks, I'm still upset about him dying. If I had my way it would have been Locke to go. I don't get or like the way he knows everything...from how to build homemade tools to how to hunt and track, to identifying every plant, animal, lanquage, and weather pattern known to man. I'm guessing Sayid only wants to kill because of Shannon...who probably feels guilty about not being with Boone when he died.

Alias - Not sure what the hell is going on with this show. Obviously Sloane and Jack are up to something, and Vaughn will obviously do anything to find out the truth about his dad. It seems to me that Vaughn's dad will have something to do with the return of Sydney's "dead" mother. Not sure what yet, but we'll see.

Desperate Housewives - So Carlos is going to jail for 8 months so that Gabrielle can keep the house?! And Gabrielle is going to hide the 1.6 million from Carlos until who knows when?! From the previews it looks like Jesse Metcalf is back and him and Gabrielle is either in love with him or plans to use him to hold the money. Hmmm...

Susan is boring. Along with Lynette. They both need some new, good storylines really soon. I heard rumors that Lynette would find out that Tom has another family in another city...that would take care of Lynette's storylines. And Susan...she either needs to get back with Mike or continue her investigations with Edie of Paul.

It looks like Bree will find out that Andrew may be gay soon. I can imagine her outrageous reaction. I really hope that she doesn't get back with Rex and I'm kind of dissapointed that after everything they went through to hide Andrew's hit and run of Carlos' mom, nothing ever came of it.

Well back in real life, the weathers still good, I return to work tomorrow, and hopefully I'll have some real stuff to write about soon...Jonesy

So I just found out a couple of things about myself. First I can't fly a kite. Second, I don't know how to swing like I used to. And third, I'm officially too big to go down slides...

I'm off today and tomorrow and that makes me happy. Seems like all the drama of the last few weeks has passed and everyone is back to normal. The weather is warming up and I'm so glad Summer is on the way. I have big plans to do something other than sit around the house and go to work.

My "relationship" is officially over, so I need to find some new friends. Being committed to someone just because they pressure you to isn't a good basis for a relationship. At least I don't think so. Well it's Summer and I'm on the prowl. I kinda prefer it this way, being free to do what I want, when I want, and with who I want.

You know it's Summertime when you hear all these new songs on the radio. Just today I've heard new songs from Toni Braxton, Q-tip, Vivian Green, and Syleena Johnson. In the past few days I've heard new stuff from System of a Down, Weezer, Gorillaz, and Kelly Osbourne. Good stuff. I'm looking forward to it.

As you can see, nothing much is going on...so I guess I'll leave it at that.

Jonesy

So it's been almost 2 weeks...I'm sorry but I've actually been busy. I went to Tucson and to Mexico last week with some of my friends I haven't seen in a while. It went better than expected and I had fun getting drunk and going to the beach and Mexican strip clubs.

I just found two of the best websites ever...The first is a site from the Czech Republic that sells Absinthe. What is that you ask? Here's how the site describes it: 

Absinthe, or affectionately known as the Green Fairy (La Fee Verte), is a high alcohol volume (usually 50-70%), unique tasting liqueur infused with a plethora of flavors derived from variety of herbs. Absinthe derives its Green Fairy nickname from its color and its humble beginnings as a miraculous cure all. Absinthe’s unique coloring is the result of the chlorophyll present in the herbs. These herbs include anise, hyssop, veronica, fennel, lemon balm, angelica and last but not least wormwood. Wormwood produces the psychoactive constituent thujone, which is responsible for producing the mysterious absinthe “effects”.

People usually report a sense of drunken clarity when drinking absinthe. In other words, the loosening effects of the alcohol are felt while the mind remains coherent. For best results, select an absinthe with a high thujone level and drink it fast or else you will only feel the effects of the alcohol. If drank enough absinthe, close eye hallucinations have been reported.

I'm going to buy some...it starts at like $12.00. And the best part is they have a special drink called Cannabis Vodka, which actually is alcohol - WITH MARIJUANA IN IT!!!! That's so crazy I'm going to buy 2 bottles...follow the link ------> http://www.absinthe.bz/" title="http://www.absinthe.bz/" target="_blank"http://www.absinthe.bz/

The other best website ever is actually a blog about new and underground pop/dance music. The guy that writes it talks about all the new music thats out now and is about to come out. You can even download most of the stuff on the site. -------> http://www.arjanwrites.com/arjanwrites/" title="http://www.arjanwrites.com/arjanwrites/" target="_blank"http://www.arjanwrites.com/ar...

I've noticed in the past couple of days that I get jealous a lot. I don't think of myself as a jealous person, but sometimes I wish I had what others do...

Here's what's in my playlist right now:

1. I Can't Stop Loving You - Kem

2. A Home - The Dixie Chicks

3. Dirty Harry - Gorillaz

4. Feel Good Inc. - Gorillaz

5. One Word - Kelly Osbourne

6. I'm That Type of Guy - LL Cool J

7. Gotta Go, Gotta Leave - Vivian Greene

8. Obsession - Frankie J

9. Gasolina - Daddy Yankee

10. Truth Is - Fantasia

And now I'm going to bed...keep yo' knapsacks tight, Jonesy

Okay I called it like a week ago. I knew something crazy was about to happen and it did...damn I'm good.

So this chick I work with is delusional. She is dating this one guy who is in jail for parole violations, engaged to him, and she has this other guy we work with believing she loves him and has him paying her car payment every month. The dumb thing is she went around the job telling people that she was getting married next year and it got back to the other guy. To sit back and watch the fallout was some good entertainment for the past couple of days.

Last night I had this really weird, crazy dream. It actually woke me up a couple of times. In it I'm at work when a friend and I decide to go to the movies. To make a long story short, we end up back at their place getting into it. It was a good, no a great dream but it came from no where. Well to be honest I've been thinking alot about this person and it's seriously some off limits property. Why is it the ones we want the most are the ones that don't want us back? To those of you that know me well, I'll keep you guessing on who it is.

I've been giving a lot of thought to getting my own place...or finding a roommate. I don't have any problems with living at home, I just think it makes me lazy and I don't gain anything when I don't have to do anything really. Not having to pay rent is nice, but there's no serious reason for me to be here. It's decided....by the end of the year, I'll be in my own place.

I wish it would warm up already! Enough rain and snow. It makes me glad to be going to Tucson next week.

And I'm out...later, Jonesy

This Updates for you Kim.

Not much going on...I brought plane tickets to go back to Tucson. I'm going to meet my friend from New York here in VA, and then we're going to head out west. I'm excited to see all my old friends again, and I'm sure I'm going to be drunk all week.

I got my yearly review at work this past week, and let's just say I was much, much unhappy about it. I was basically told that I'm not performing well, and that I lack motivation and I bring my problems to work. What the hell? I don't have any problems until I come to work. I don't perform well? I'm not a cocky person at all, yet I can easily say that I'm that best person in my department. I think I got such a bad review because I'm not in contact with my managers...I don't need to be. I can be given a goal and left alone unlike most of my co-workers. Another issue I have is the fact that I have made negative comments to my managers. If I have a problem with something, they will know it. I don't believe in the let it slide bullshit people so often use, and if something bothers me or I don't think it's right I will tell them straight up and I expect it to be changed. I'm not spoiled or anything, but why settle for bullshit? People should not be punished for trying to improve things....My boss can kick rocks...

I don't feel like talking about anything else serious right now, so how about music...yeah that always makes me happy.

Five Best Albums Most People Don't Care About

5.Brandy - Afrodisiac

4.Heather Headley - This Is Who I Am

3.Dannii Minogue - Neon Nights

2.Scissor Sisters - Scissor Sisters

1.Vivian Green - A Love Story

Five Songs I'm Feeling Right Now

5.Jennifer Lopez - He'll Be Back

4.Tamia - Whispers

3.Gwen Stefani - Harajuku Girls

2.You're My Favorite - Caesars

1.Let Love - Res

I'm out, and remember...if someone pisses you off, they can kick rocks!

Damn it's been a while...it's 4 o'clock in the morning and I can't sleep. I'm so bored that I'm watching T.J. Hooker on TV. Sad...

It's been a busy week...last weekend I went out somewhere I never thought I'd be with certain people and had a lot of fun. It was cool. We're going out again on Thursday night which actually gives me something to look forward too.

I'll be 22 later on this month, and I'm starting to feel old as shit. It's scary when I think that in 8 years I'll be 30...

As you can tell by the title of this post, I've been smoking the ganja. A lot. Or at least a lot for me. I don't think I like it, but it's fun...and I don't have anything else to do. I'm going to try and stop...

I'm 2 steps closer to buying my new car. My parents are going to match whatever I come up with, so it's looking good. I think they're going to surprise me and pay for it for my birthday...we'll see.

I F-ING HATE WINDOWS!!! Everytime I try to do something new with my computer, it screws up. And before you say that I don't know what I'm doing, know that I'll spend like 2 weeks researching stuff before I actually try to do something new. And then when I go to do it, it doesn't work. I hate Microsoft, I hate Bill Gates, and I hate spyware. Apple...I'm coming soon, I promise.

Work hasn't been too bad lately. I guess my only complaint now is the fact that I think people put too much on me. I'm expected to be able to open or close by myself, take care of my department, and handle manager's decisions for less than $9.00 an hour. Whether or not I can do it is not the issue, its the fact that I shouldn't have to. I feel like I'm becoming like this one woman I work with, who has been there forever and everyone depends on - but she will always be a cashier. I don't want to stay in customer service and sometimes I wish my managers would give me something different or something challenging. I'd love to try the sales floor, but when I try to do something different, everyone says "you're so good where you are, you should stay there..." It sucks, and I think I'm going to put in a transfer pretty soon. djkaldjfhdakhfjka...and I just fell asleep on the keyboard...guess that means time for bed....

Remember, Keep yo' knapsacks tight....Jonesy

Hey, wassup? I've decided what I'm going back to school for...either journalism or creative writing. I was that kid in high school that loved english class and loved to read and write. But my first love was meteorology, and after going in the air force, getting my associates in atmospheric sciences, and actually forecasting and observing weather, I decided it wasn't for me. So now I'm going to try my hand at journalism. I love to write and it is something I've always been decent at(don't judge me
from this blog!). In the past I've actually written poems, short stories, and even scripts for this tv show (ha!) I came up with. I think it could be the start of a new chapter (no pun intended) of my life. Wish me luck...

there's a new cologne out called "Be Delicious" by DKNY. And yeah it
is for guys. It smells good and I'm going to buy it.

I'm in love with my Ipods. I have a 4g 20gig, and a 512 shuffle, and wherever I go, I take 3 things: my cigarettes, my cellphone, and an ipod. It's the best mp3 player you could buy in my opinion, and with itunes in the mix...it's obvious what the best choice is. I'm not saying its what you should do, it just works for me...

I'm still trying to plan a vacation...I just don't know where to go. I could always go back to Tucson or Biloxi to visit friends, but I want to go somewhere I've never been before. Hmmm, something to think about - and on that note I'm out. Holla!

P.S. - oh yeah did you hear that someone found Paris Hiltons phonebook? Here's the link to it, she's got eminem, vin diesel, anna kournikova, Lindsay Lohan and a whole bunch of other people in there! http://www.parishilton.be/book.php" title="http://www.parishilton.be/book.php" target="_blank"http://www.parishilton.be/boo...

A good ending to a bad week...my neck is starting to feel better, but I still feel like I'm 60 in the mornings. I didn't go out for one of my friends birthday but for some reason I don't feel guilty. She's a good person, but sometimes I think she's a little...I don't know. Now I do feel bad.

Lets journey into TV land really quick. Akil got voted off of Road to Stardom...wtf? He was probably the most talented person on the show. I'm upset. Is it just me or is Lost getting boring? Enough damn questions, how about some answers? Would any of you ever go on The Real World? I don't think I could, I would hurt someone. Or either instigate something to keep from getting bored with the same damn people in one house.

I brought circus tickets. I know I'll be 22 next month, but I love the circus...

There's some drama brewing at work. And for once I don't have any place in it. I'm just on the sidelines, being entertained. I'm not even sure exactly whats going on. I just have a feeling that something bad is about to happen.

There's just chick that I work with that's pregnant by her ex. She's 19, lives with her boyfriend of 2 weeks, has no money, and smokes cigarettes and weed. I don't know what her problem is but I feel sad for the baby. I want to tell her to get her act together and stop being so selfish, but I'm not sure of how to do that without sounding preachy or self-righteous. Hopefully she'll get right before the baby comes. Pray for her...

I'm out....Jonesy

Music to listen to : Long Ways by Urban Mystic. This IS real R&B. I found out about this guy from some independent music site and threw this song on my ipod. While in shuffle mode this song came up and I feel in love. Feeling like something older than it is, the lyrics, music, and slow pace come together to form my new favorite song. Give it a listen...http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=36510836

Hey, I know it's been a little while but I've been a little under the weather.

So something is wrong with my neck. Seriously it's like the worse pain I've ever felt. When I wake up in the morning, I can barely move it. I'm scared to go the doctor because I have Scoliosis and I'm afraid I'll hear something I don't really want to. Hopefully it will go away and I'll be alright.

Didn't do too much so far this week...Valentines Day (even though I'm totally against it) was cool. I got 2 boxes of chocolates and a rose. I didn't know guys got flowers too but I was happy anyways.

I was reading my friends blog and got an idea: random stories. So here goes...

1. On this one trip to Mexico, a group of about 6 of us went to this strip club to sober up before we crossed back over the border. While there my friend Randy paid $8 to get a hand job from this fat mexican stripper. Wow...


2. The most scared I've ever been is when I was in basic training for September 11th. Imagine being straight out of high school, away from home for the first time, in the military for less than a week, and your TI tells you that America is under attack and you'll all be given guns and shipped to the desert to fight. The worst part was not knowing who or what had been attacked and if your family was alright.


3. I was at this dorm party back in Tucson one night, and everyone was drunk. This girl I couldn't stand kept trying to tell me what kind of person I was and why she didn't like me. Now I'm not really a violent guy, but this girl pissed me off. So much so that I threw a beer bottle at the back of her head, but thankfully missed. Oops...


4. One more...I experienced my first case of racism in the weirdest place possible - a gay bar. We were in Biloxi, Mississippi and my girlfriend at the time (who is white), her bestfriend (who is also white) and her boyfriend (puerto rican) decided to go to this bar Joey's. None of us had ever been to a gay bar and just wanted to see what it was like. So we go in and head to the bar. My girlfriend and I were holding hands and the barkeeper says "Get the hell out of here, I don't serve mixers." Wtf?!! I was like, okay, we're in a gay bar and you won't let me in because I'm black and my girlfriend is white? That this goes to show you that discrimination can come from anyone at anytime.

aight...I'm off to 7-11. I swear they have the best brownies in the world! Give 'em a try sometime...I'm out, Jonesy

So yeah, it's been a while. That's basically because I thought I could simply install a new video card in my computer and call it a day. Not the case. After 3 failed cards, 3 days of frustrations, and 3 days of working in safe mode, I gave up. So yeah, I'm back...

I think I'm afraid of commitment. Those that know me the best know what I'm talking about. For those of you that don't, well let's just say I'm involved with someone on again/off again. Right now we're on. And I'm scared because I've caught feelings. I'm not afraid of this fact alone, It's because it's feelings with this person. I mean, is this the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, have kids with, buy a house and a dog with? If not then I feel like I'm wasting my time. Sure the sex is good, no great, but what about everything else? The concept of dating is simple to me : If you and I are not going to be together for the rest of our lives, get out of my way. Quote me on that. I don't know how to handle this...

I'm thinking about moving back to Arizona. I miss it. When I was living there, I missed Virginia. hmmmm....

I got my new Janet Jackson DVD the other day. It has all the videos from janet - Damita Jo, but unfortunately Doesn't Really Matter isn't up there. It's still hot though.

My uncle died yesterday morning. It was one of those unexpected deaths don't you just don't ever imagining happen. It's hard because we were really close and he did so much for me and my brother. When my mom left my son-of-a bitch dad, he stepped right in helping raise us. Damn, it sucks and that's all I'm going to say...

I'm out...Jonesy

Music to listen to : Take Your Mama Out - The Scissor Sisters. Very good song by a very weird band who quickly became my favorite. The song goes "We're gonna take your mama out all night, yeah we'll show her what it's all about. We'll get her jacked up on some cheap champagne, we'll let the good times all roll out. And if the music ain't good, well that's just too bad. We're gonna sing along no matter what. Cause the dancers don't mind at The New Orleans, if you tip 'em and they make a cut." Classic lyrics. 10 extra cool points if anyone can figure out the theme of the song...http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=11566344

So the weekend officially started at work friday when this customer asked me who I wanted to win the super bowl and I replied "I don't even know who's going." So I had to spend the next 5 minutes explaining to him why I don't like football, and why I don't have a favorite team. I was pissed. I don't like football, leave me alone.

Last night I went to Friday's again...it was cool at first but then another friend showed up with her...let's say boyfriend. Well he brought his fat bastard friend, this asshole guy that talked way too much. Like, "Look how much I can drink," and "Look how many friends I can call." Bastard, thanks for ruining my night.

That story brings me to another question. If you had two friends that were in a relationship and one of those friends started messing around with someone else, would you say something to either? I ask because a little while back this chick I was friends with started messing with her boyfriends(who I am also cool with) friend. I knew from the get-go, but I didn't tell him. I couldn't. She would wait for him to go to work and then invite the guy over for whatever. And then she would tell me she did it and start crying. I wanted to tell him so bad, but I couldn't. And then to top it off, she would use my name when he would get suspicious and ask questions, so he started accusing me of liking his girl. I knew I should have said something, but still I held back. He eventually found out three months after she broke up with him and moved away, and he still doesn't know that I knew the whole time. What would you have done? Was I wrong?

Doesn't it suck to find out someone makes more money than you do, when you do more work? anyways, that's all for today, I'm out...Jonesy

Music to listen to: Zombie by The Cranberries. We all have those songs where you can remember exactly what you were doing the first time you heard it. This one I heard on my first camping trip in the middle of a lake in a canoe. It was playing on my friends radio and I remember it because he kept rocking the boat. Which isn't that bad except I can't swim. I was terrified and this song fit perfectly. Very good song...http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=2285495

Real short and to the point today, because I'm drunk, I'm not at home and I can't type right.

I went to T.G.I.Fridays after work today with a couple of people. It was cool. I drank too much.

I heard the funniest thing on tv..."If you were a homeware store, you'd be Bitch, Bath and Beyond, Bitch."  Hilarious...

that's it, holla back...Jonesy

So I got my first computer virus today. Somehow, my little brother got it downloading something from a videogame site. Luckily, my vast knowledge of computers (yeah, right!) helped me get rid of it. If anything this taught me a valuable lesson: If I would just buy my apple, I wouldn't have this problem.

One of my "friends" uses cocaine. WTF? They called me yesterday and asked if I knew where they could get some snow. Being my smart ass self, I said go outside. They then said "no S-N-O-W." "What the hell is that?" I asked. It's motherfucking crack! Who does that anymore? Weed, sure. X, maybe. But crack? I was shocked, I couldn't say anything. This person doesn't exactly have a perfect life, but why do something like that? I don't understand at all and that kind of scares me, not knowing something like that about one of my "friends." Do I say anything, do anything? And you know what else scares me? I mentioned it to someone else and they told me three different people I could get it from. What the hell?

I think I'm going to get some this weekend, but I won't jinx it so that's all I'll say right now.

That's it for now, It's almost 2am and I'm going to watch Johnny Zero...another "problem" caused by Tivo, lol...Jonesy

Music to listen to: Trying to Find a Balance - Atmosphere...so we finally got to underground rap. I got turned on to this a couple of years ago by my best friend Scott, and ever since then I've been hooked. Atmosphere is probably my favorite rap music and this is one of their best songs. http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=2556560&" title="http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=2556560&" target="_blank"http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=2556493

Ha, today was a good day. It snowed here in VA again, which is wierd for this area. We hardly ever get this much snow in one winter. Personally, Winter is not my favorite season; I'm still waiting for Spring/Summer but I had to admit it was nice to have a little reminder that it is February.

Work was good today...I swear there are some crazy people in this world though. Why do people think that they can buy something in April and come back and return it almost a year later!? Sounds weird but the highlight of my day was getting cursed out by this guy trying to return a playstation he brought for his son christmas of '03 because his son was getting bad grades. Hilarious...

I'm watching too much tv and tivo is to blame. Ever since I got it back in November, I started watching shows I never would have before. Just because I can. Seriously though, Tivo has me hooked on Degrassi, a freaking teen show. And Point Pleasant. And The Ashlee Simpson Show etc...

Tax returns are good. I've decided to save more money this year, which is weird for me. "You can't take it with you when you die" was always my saying, but you also can't live paycheck to paycheck in the world today. One bill turns into five and before you know it, you're in debt. Hahaha, I'm growing up...

In Other News...that crush I was talking about earlier has gotten worst. I'm spending more and more time with my work crush which would be cool...if I didn't act like a giddy school girl whenever they came around. In the words of my favorite lady - "That's the Way Love Goes."

Music to listen to: 2 for 1 Thursday - These two are sisters from Australia...not so famous in the states. Awesome Dance/Pop music though. Think of it like this Kylie = Janet Jackson, Dannii = Madonna. At least in the UK and Australia. Oh, and I know you remeber Kylie from The Loco-motion in the 80's. Can't go wrong.

You Won't Forget About Me - Dannii Minogue

Butterfly - Kylie Minogue

Jonesy

so it's hump day...I didn't do a damn thing today, except watch The Grudge. What a horrible, awful movie! What the hell?! Everyone said it was good, so I brought it. Probably the worse movie I've seen in a while...

I got a call from a friend I hadn't talked to in a while today, and the basis was so fake. I mean if you haven't talked to someone for a while you would think that you would ask how they were doing or whats going on in there life...not some impersonal question that is just out of place. That's friends though.

I really like On the Road to Stardom...With Missy Elliott. Missy is funny as hell, and she's blunt and to the point. Gotta say my favorites right now are Akil, Eddie, and Matthew. Akil - self-explanatory, the man can do it all. Eddie - seems like a real cool and down to earth person, and a good mc. Matt - cool guy, good voice. I don't know though, seems like something is missing.

In other news...So I think I was incorrectly "outed" at work. I mean it doesn't bother me at all, I could care less but it's funny. Rumors are funny. I think I'll play along for awhile, for the hell of it.

I'm off to bed now gotta get used to the early shift again...peace, and take care.    Jonesy

music to listen to : You So Fly - by Akil Dasan...awesome musician. All I can say is he's like a male version of Jill Scott. Check it out. http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=6609879&" title="http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=6609879&" target="_blank"http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=6609851

Ah so nothing new today...went to work, came home. Exciting huh?

I finally got my W-2, so hopefully I'll go get my taxes done tomorrow.

In other news...Have you ever noticed that there are some people you who you instantly like and want to be friends with, and some you just don't like for whatever reason? Today I told someone that another person just didn't matter to me and they instantly made me feel really bad about it. I mean, it's not like I don't like this person or I do like them...I just feel neutral about them. "Like I don't wish you any misfortune or anything, but why should I even bother with you?" And it's feelings like these that make me feel like an asshole. A lot of times I'll think something or say something that makes me think I'm the anti-christ. I have a temper. Not one of those "I'll snap your neck" type of things, but more like an internal rage...and then I lash out at whoever pisses me off. I think I need to work on that.

Music to listen to : God is a DJ by Pink - it's about the lyrics to me..."If God is a DJ, Life is a dancefloor, Love is a rhythm, You are the Music" http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=3425280&" title="http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=3425280&" target="_blank"http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=3425182

so yesterday I went to see Hide and Seek at the movies. I didn't want to like it and as much as I hate to admit it, it was pretty good. Even better was the crazy ass people I went to see it with. (except for you Kim...punk)

The itunes contest started today, and with all the damn pepsi shit I've been drinking, I better win an Ipod mini. I've already won 9 songs and every song is an entry into the contest so wish me luck...

Work still sucks but I really do think it's the people that keeps me there. I mean for every dummy there there are 3 cool people so it evens out.

In other news...Best Buy is going to start selling Mac Minis by the end of February so I can hopefully use my employee discount to buy one...hopefully...

Music to Listen to : Get Right by Jennifer Lopez - I'm not a J.HO fan, but I'm feeling this song...it's good to dance to. http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=39443232&" title="http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=39443232&" target="_blank"http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=39443209

Holla back, Jonesy

p.s. Help me out and click the ipod shuffle link on the left...it really works just do the efax thing - it's free

 Just got home from work...Wow I have a crush on someone I work with. :oops: What the hell, I don't get crushes very often but when I do, it's always someone who I know it wouldn't work out with. That's life I guess. Why do we always want the one thing we know isn't going to be easy or even work.

In other news...I hate my job!!! I don't even know why I'm still there, it's not like I need to be. It fucking sucks...I should quit, but I know I'm not going too. I think I want to go on vacation but I don't know where or with who or anything. It sucks being single...

Music to Listen to : Who Can I Run To by Xscape (yeah from 1995 - a classic) http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=504590&" title="http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=504590&" target="_blank"http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=759131

I guess the purpose of this page is to create a space where I can put down my thoughts and be able to look back and see what was going on, and what I was thinking at the time. It's kinda tough to get to a point in your life and things don't seem to be the way you always thought they would be. Not that my life is horrible, but it's just not what I want it to be...

In other news - I've decided that I'm going to buy a new car and a mac mini before the end of February...those are my current goals in life (sad, huh). I don't know why, but buying things makes me happy.

Music to listen to : Booty La La by Bugz in the Attic...check it out.  http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=39262144&" title="http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?playlist Id=39262144&" target="_blank"http://phobos.apple.com/WebOb...;selectedItemId=39262126